Hi guys. I know, I know. It's been forever since we talked. But to be completely honest I just haven't been feeling inspired to write about anything. It's been a weird year. I've been in my head a lot and overthinking about what I post and share. Letting the possible negative opinions and doubters be too loud instead of just being myself and sharing anyway. Since I started this blog 2.5 years ago (wow can't believe it's been that long) It's definitely been a journey full of ups and downs. The wind got taken out of my sails when things weren't growing like I wanted them to or how I thought they should be. I'm proud of myself for putting myself out there and being vulnerable BUT at the same time you can only share so much with getting little to no feedback.
I am very excited to launch this new Talk Tuesday series but also at the same time hesitant to start. But I decided to go for it because it sounds fun to me. I want to dive into all the things and talk about anything and everything. In an effort to get me excited about writing and blogging again I was brainstorming ideas that would keep me coming back to this space more. One night when I couldn't sleep (all my best thinking happens around 12am...ugh) this idea came to me.
I want to discuss a plethora of subjects and maybe even bring people on to do mini interviews if we are discussing a subject they are super knowledgeable about or have a personal experience with.
But today to kick off TALK TUESDAY, I am going to talk about something I touched on briefly last week on instagram.
I have been really struggling to feel like I fit into a certain type of "blogger" on instagram. Because I just don't. Trying to get the perfectly curated planned outfit aestethicgally pleasing photo is just NOT coming natural to me. Because its NOT natural. And I am not going to force my family to do it just so I can get a photo that will get a lot of likes. It usually results in me sweating trying to get my 3yo to pose with me or trying to keep her occupied while trying to get a photo of me in a cute outfit with the perfect background is fucking exhausting. It usually ends with me not liking the photos because I don't look genuinely happy and my husband being frustrated because he tried his best. That's usually why if you see me post an outfit, its a mirror pic because that's what works for me.
Heres the thing, I am my best self when I am my REAL genuine self. I don't do well when I feel like I have to fit a mold or try to be something I'm not. I'm frustrated with myself that I felt like I had to try to be something I'm not to be a successful blogger. And I just have not been thriving trying to fit into the perfect aesthetic instagram blogger. My photos are a smorgasbord of life and I'm going to post what reflects that. Not me in an outfit that matches where I'm brunching that day.
I am in by no means trying to hate on people who do this. If it works for you, ROCK ON GIRL! I love aestethics just as much as the next girl...but not being able to deliver that on a regular basis was doing serious damage to my mental health and how I viewed my success as a blogger.
I just don't think it portrays me and the message I want to put out into the world. My hair doesn't always look perfectly curled and I very rarely have makeup on these days... so I refuse to only post when I look like that. I am human and flawed, I hate that I felt like I had to portray perfection to be liked.
So I'm regrouping. I'm getting back to why I started this blog in the first place and that's sharing my REAL life- not one that just looks good on Instagram. I hope that diving into some of the subjects that I have experience with and sharing will reignite my passion for being here.
Thanks for joining my first talk tuesday and I WANT to hear from you. Message me on here, DM me on instagram or facebook and let me know if you've struggled with portraying perfection in whatever capacity that is for you. I know I can't be the only one.
XO,
Sarah
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